Day Four

So, today is a little better than yesterday. I had a hard night last night, but today things are in a little better perspective. I talked to the IVF coordinator finally (she called me today after being out of pocket since I started my meds 4 days ago!!!). She answered lots of questions and I'm feeling better about where we are. I have had a constant stream of people reminding me that God's timing is perfect and he is doing this for a reason. The timing WILL work out better due date wise...making me due in early May, and thus able to take the whole end of school off and not go back til the following school year. Even if the baby/babies were to come a little early.
Today was really great. Amy and I went to lunch with our friend Heather. Heather is a fellow teacher we met in our support group. Strangely enough, she taught at the same school I teach at! The school has been open 9 years. She taught there the first 2, I have taught there the past 7. We just missed eachother! Heather is on the tailend of In Vitro. She was implanted last Thursday and will know Monday if she is pregnant. How exciting! I have to admit, I'm jealous. I wish I was that far along already! After lunch, we took Heather to see BABY MAMA at the dollar theater. That movie is so funny! And what is better than 3 infertile gals going to see a movie about infertility?!?! It was great to laugh at our own sorrows together.
Now...following Mom and Amy's direction, and Joe's wish for me to be more positive...I will write 5 things to be happy about today. I bought a necklace with a poem on it that says to count the positives. I wear it every day and I am going to start following it's advice.

"Count your blessings instead of your crosses.

Count your gains instead of your losses.

Count your joys instead of your woes.

Count your friends instead of your foes.

Count your smiles instead of your tears.

Count your courage instead of your fears.

Count your health instead of your wealth

And love your neighbor as yourself."

1. Fish and Chips with malt vinegar. If you've ever been to England and had this in the newspaper from a chippy...man, you know what I'm talking about. Lucky for me, RJ Gator's makes it about as good as you can find in the states.
2. Tina Fey makes me laugh when I look at her. She is the funniest woman in entertainment right now. I LOVE HER. Period.
3. Stencils are fun! I have bought a bunch of letter stencils and am busy making some of my own tonight. I have this new painting idea and I am prepping to try it out. If I ever get to the paint step, I'll take a pic for you!
4. Blogging. My husband may not understand why, but he does acknowledge that blogging does something good for me. When I started crying last night, he told me to get up and go blog it. He knew it would make me feel better to let it out here. Speaking of which, my Joey was great last night. He understands my heartache and will stay up and hold me, take me for french fries and frosties at 1am and fall asleep with me on the floor so I can watch TV and calm down. What a great husband I have.
5. Inspirational thoughts. Yesterday I quoted a Casting Crowns song called "Praise You in This Storm." One part I left out really comforts me today..."every tear I've cried, You hold in your hand. You never left my side. And tho my heart is torn, I will praise you in this storm." How great to know that God is standing here catching every tear that falls. That he knows every single tear. Awesome.