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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Day Twelve...the sequel

So here's the deal...
I talked to the IVF coordinator and she broke the news to me. My egg retrieval date will be between AUG 11-17th. Yeah...a month away!!! That means I don't even start my injections until next week or the following week even! This means several discouraging things for us....
#1. No Orlando for Labor Day. We won't be done yet.
#2. No inservice week for Rachel. I will either be on bedrest or being implanted AND on bedrest during that week. Not good, since that is training week.
#3. Maybe no first 2-3 days of school for Rachel. Sounds good in theory...More summer, right? No. It means days I've saved for maternity leave will be used for things I should have been able to do this summer, and I'll miss meeting my babies at school and have to leave it to someone else.
#4. I'm going to have to set up my room way before school starts since I won't be allowed to lift or move big stuff after/during extraction and implanting.
So...while it's not tragic info, it's not what we wanted. I've cried 3 times today as I have once again had any control I felt I had snatched away. I feel like God is really trying to make a point to me...YOU DON'T CALL THE SHOTS. I DO. It's a little hard to handle. And it makes me sad that my whole summer I couldn't do anything but wait, and then wait some more, and then be stuck here for doc stuff...finally. I feel like I've lost my summer completely. As Amy said, "It better work now!!" It will.
And hey, for my sanity, please don't tell me this all in God's timing. I know it is, but it doesn't make this easier to swallow right now. Just acknowledge it sucks right now to be in my shoes, but that it'll be worth it when I have a baby.

4 comments:

Lauren said...

I love the new layout. I am sorry to hear the news about your doctor visits and date change, I know it will be hard to get everything ready an organized for school when you still feel like it's summer. If you need help setting up your room or anything let me know. I go back to work on 8/6, so I can help before then.

Taylor said...

I just want you to know that I read every day and I'm praying for you. I KNOW how frustrating it is... I hurt with you.

amy said...

Rach, I just wanted to say that it sucks right now to be in your shoes...but it will all be worth it when you have a baby in your belly!! Ha! Hang in there girlfriend, maybe we can take our kids to Disney World together when they get older!!! Or maybe we'll be yachting...

Jake and Tanya Wilson said...

Rach...
Ha ha, sorry that was totally me saying that it is all Gods timing. :o/ Let me know if you need help setting stuff up! I will be in the decorating mood for the next couple of months!!